the foolish and the mellow voices

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I miss that playful humour - the kind you get when we get close enough to see that everything's beyond the laughter and the miss-yous

Yesterday we caught PS I love you. Yes, it's the kind of show i've never liked - cheesy romantic and all, lovey-dovey. But Gerard Butler was charming. In that sillysweet, crazybeautiful kind of charming.

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For the last 2 weeks, I caught The Diving Bell and the Butterfly and Juno. You should watch The Diving Bell if you haven't been fond of life, is or considering cheating on your partner, been on the relentless pursuit of a career, money, car and whatnots.

And for Juno, it was a good laugh. Ellen Page played Juno impeccably and even Michael Cera was a cute geek.

i want to catch There will be Blood!

ARGH!!!

BACK TO STATSt

And I had really wished this year will be different. (Til now, nothing has changed really. 2008 doesn't appear to be Any different from 2007 except for modules - are these what mark new years?) 

I hate to say this but it's getting stifling, daunting and trying.

I don't enjoy Christmas. I've never and I doubt i ever would. This year, I've gotten 2 gifts. one from Xiaoxuan and the other from Colin. It's a keyboard! It's so precious. Perhaps because of the fact that i know nuts about working its magic and wish to learn how to actually play more than from C to G. But I'm a slow learner and the holiday's almost over and School (oh that very dreadful thing) is about to ruin my life again. But yet, I'm glad to have to short break.


So now, its time to looking forward to seeing des who is BACK, in a few hours, the High Tea appointment, alicia&xuan date, hopefully meeting up with jeremy and seeing mich after she returns, watching more Bond films and more Sun

I hate being uncertain, having no idea what i am doing in SMU, missing those days of solitary wandering nowhere , lazy weekends, reading and being with people who make me happy just by saying and doing the silliest things. It's funny how those things i miss spells uncertainty and flippancy. It's the spontaneity really. Most days I hate making plans and deciding for things I've no interest in or knowledge of.

 Rationality in emotional arguments are ironic and it's hard to draw a line between resolving a plain problem and untangling yourself from emotional ones. Still, we ought to try and perhaps someday it will work out.

I thought feeling all these emotions were healthier than denying them but now I'm not so determined.